Its hard to believe that less then a week ago i was in my first car accident. I haven't had to face it much because its just been me in the house for the most part. Now its not and its hitting me... hard. I know i really could of gotten hurt in the accident. The car is totaled and there is nothing that anyone can do. I am feeling more remorse then anything. i know it wasn't my fault but there is still a side of me that just wants to go back in time and be 5 minutes late or just a minute earlier I am seeing the pain around the house. I saw the pictures last night and all i have been thinking of is the second right before it happened when i knew it was going to happen and there was nothing i could do but scream. the screaming is just playing over and over in my head. like a broken record. it scares me to think of what could of happened if i was going just a little bit faster. the pain i have physically at this point is not even close to the emotional build up i have inside, i will be okay. All i can think about is how i am alive and well. God saved me, in the moment after it happened i was crying out but in thanks that i was alive. of course it didn't sound like it because i was screaming but it was such a bitter sweet moment. i was alive and hunter was alive and the other car was fine and the other people were perfectly fine. it could of been so much worse.
i guess what i would ask from you is tat you would pray for me,
you would pray for CB and Gary and all the stuff going on with the car
and you would pray for the other driver
Its hard to believe that less then a week ago i was in my first car accident. I haven't had to face it much because its just been me in the house for the most part. Now its not and its hitting me... hard. I know i really could of gotten hurt in the accident. The car is totaled and there is nothing that anyone can do. I am feeling more remorse then anything. i know it wasn't my fault but there is still a side of me that just wants to go back in time and be 5 minutes late or just a minute earlier I am seeing the pain around the house. I saw the pictures last night and all i have been thinking of is the second right before it happened when i knew it was going to happen and there was nothing i could do but scream. the screaming is just playing over and over in my head. like a broken record. it scares me to think of what could of happened if i was going just a little bit faster. the pain i have physically at this point is not even close to the emotional build up i have inside, i will be okay. All i can think about is how i am alive and well. God saved me, in the moment after it happened i was crying out but in thanks that i was alive. of course it didn't sound like it because i was screaming but it was such a bitter sweet moment. i was alive and hunter was alive and the other car was fine and the other people were perfectly fine. it could of been so much worse.