where to start...

i don't really know where to start except for i am having a horrible night. i haven't stopped crying for a good hour... but i guess thats just cause i am not good at pulling myself together tonight. Maybe this will help.
First off i am really missing my friends tonight. especially ames. i feel like it has been too long and i am starting to forget  the time we had together. How can i forget about my best friend? :'( i hate it. and i lied this just makes me cry more... but i thought you all should know what is going on in life right now.

second. i have been thinking a lot about railton and about being at the salvation army. i love everything about Railton except for the distance. i dont want to be that far away. i am already far enough away from people that we dont see each other. i am afraid if i move they will just push me to the back of their minds and forget about me. it scares me to death. :'(

also i miss eastpointe. i miss the challenge, the fellowship, the people, everything about it.

i am still feeling stuck things aren't changing and i am staying the same.

please pray for me if you are reading this.

... not ok.

im feeling stuck today.

trying to think of the blessings
they are being killed by the hard things.