Missing my friends...

Tonight is going a little different then I expected. I spent most of it watching movies and messing around on facebook. Until about 5 minutes ago. I went on my friends profile and looked at this one photo that she made up for me this past year. You should know a little about our friendship...

We met at camp 4 summers ago. She is from New Zealand. In 2008 i knew we would be friends forever. God truely blessed me that summer with a great friend i knew i could count on to be there for me. When we left camp that summer i was really having a hard time with the fact that i wasnt going to see her again. But we stayed in contact as best we could. The next year she came back to the US and made it to my graduation and then came back to camp! I was so incredibly excited. We got to have 2 great summers together. Saying good bye that summer was even harder.  I havent seen since then except for skype. It doesnt normally bother me. We talk more then i talk to most of my friends here in the states. For some reason tonight it is bothering me. I have felt kind of alone being here at school away from everyone from home. Now i am always away from Amy but its different now. It has been 2 years since we could hang out together. She is my closest friend and lives on the other side of the world. I guess i just dont get it. I guess it has always been on my mind, how can i make friends on the other side of the world and but have the personality that friendship usually means being close to someone? I often ask God why Amy lives so far. I thank Him often for our friendship and other days I find myself angry that we are so far apart.  This may all sound weird to who ever is reading this... and i am sorry if it is but this is my blog about whats in my mind. Right now my mind and my heart is hurting.
I dont want this sound like i mop around all day crying about being far from my friend, and i dont want to sound pathetic either But in all honesty i am lonely. I find myself day after day spending the evenings hoping that someone will text me or chat with me on facebook or even stop by my place. Its hard being away. Now i also dont want you to think i am not enjoying my time here at school, I am. So much. and the people here are great. as you have probably read in my other posts. But its not the same. I miss my friends. I miss my family.