First About Me:

All my years growing up I was teased by my brother because he had a father and I didn’t.

I have 3 siblings. 2 of them I just met around my 18th birthday.

I have struggled with depression but I am too prideful to ask for help.

Because of the pain of keeping all of this a secret I have gone through years and years of  therapy for anxiety, eating disorders, OCD, and depression.

I don’t think I will ever have a counselor long enough to tell them all of this.

I don’t think I will ever get into any school because I know I am not smart enough

I fear everyday losing my friendship with anyone.

I have lost most of my self worth.

I feel like I have disappointed God.

At this point I have never felt more alone.

I really have a hard time facing the fact that I can never be good enough.

Instead of retreating back to an eating disorder I have turned into someone who must have control.

I know one day it will come back to haunt me.

I am trying everyday to devote my life to Christ but it just gets harder and harder since Satan is working over time.

I have only 3 Best Friends. And even though I am 19 I don’t think I am too old for that, because they all mean the world to me.

I love photography because it helps me remember the beauty of the world around us that we just pass every day.

Painting is another outlet for me. Even though I am just learning about it I enjoy every second with a brush in hand.

I have helped bring over  100 children to Christ

Out of everything in my life I feel that is the thing to be the most proud of.

I put in 100% even when I know I will never get that back.

I hate not knowing where my life is actually going to go.